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Well, it has been a while. I am moving forward still searching a little in the spiritual realm. Don't have much for now, though it has been an odd day for me. I think I haven't been getting enough rest as of late. It caught up with me today. Thank G it is the weekend. I will get some sleep tomorrow. Soccer game for Rad in the morn and yard work all afternoon. Got to go for now.

Well, haven't been writing as I should. Life is flowing nicely at this time. I have been staying the course for the most part as of late. Took six days off running, but ran yesterday. My biggest dilemma at this juncture is whether to replace running with some other form of aerobic exercise, ie. bicycling, swimming, or the elliptical trainer. Those aren't really terribly perplexing problems, so yes, life is just fine. At 45 and after a botched knee surgery, I always have some aches after each run. It takes a while before the pain stops when I begin my runs and about a day before it goes away. Not really substancial pain, just aches that I associate with being older. I wonder if all older runners experience these typical aches. Oh well, my problems are small. My wife is busy with her school and Doctoral program and I am just cruising through life. I joked about Law School when her program is done. Until then, I need to be available for extra time with Rad, our three year old. I ...

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Today I will focus on the good things in life. Life is really a great experience, I wonder why it is that I/we focus on the small negative events so much. We waste so much energy mulling small events that it takes valuable time away from the wonders we have. Sometimes, I believe that negativity may have some chemical or physical basis. A result of the food we eat, excercise or lack of and lack of proper rest. From there though we can get on a mental path that is hard to avert. I think simple things such as looking at the things one is grateful for is a way to get out of this. Life is great! Intellect can be a hindrance to enjoying things if you use it the wrong way. I think I need to concentrate intellect on becoming curious about the good things we have. Other that the science of how we got here at this present day one must look at the fact that there is still much inexplicable in the scientific real. How did the first atom get here. There is definately a supernatural, or somethin...

There is a not too bright busy body at work that is getting on my nerves. He is a nice guy but the biggest ass kisser I know. He tries at times to tell me what to do and he doesn't have a clue. I just don't know why he irritates me so much. Oh well, time to leave it. Been running regularly, but my right hip is beginning to bother me some. I'll try and run tomorrow, but may start doing the elliptical trainer more and run less. I think the hip may be bothering me, because I have over-adjusted my stride as a result of the problem I had with my left knee. Will keep on working it and see. My wife is on her way home. She was heading to Macon for class and it was cancelled. Oh boy, what will we do. She is really stressed lately. Actually, I was looking forward to baching it with my 3yo boy this weekend. Oh well, plans are ruined :-). Guess I had better get ready for them to arrive.

Well, looks like it is going to be a very busy week at work. I have planned and will go to the gym to work out no less than Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. This is the crunch point where I will have to make a point of pushing the workout above the mental games that come after extra hours at work. It is also a time that I will have to overlook the urge to snack badly for extra energy and instead come up with a good snack. I was relieved with my wife's comment that I was her best friend yesterday. We have been having some problems lately and that helps. Why are we our own worst enemies? Great Spirit of the Universe, thank you for being my friend.

Wow, going to visit my daughter today. Really looking forward to the trip. I am hoping I get a chance to workout this afternoon. I haven't put all of my running mileage in this week and am hoping to get it done. I am determined to somehow get on a path and stay there. I got a raise at work today. I cannot believe it. Total surprise. Nice to know one is appreciated. A little at a loss for words today. The things I will concentrate on for now are family, fitness and eating properly. These trips to Georgia are always bad for the eathing thing. Well off to explore the web a little more.

Well Just something to think about if I ever want to drink again. Things went real well today. Ran a 5K on the treadmill at the gym. Easy does it, but I am going to do it. 

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Well, seems as if I am still in a pattern of doing this every couple of months or three. I drank again on Friday and Saturday with a consequence I just don't want to discuss. Though it wasn't as bad a binge as I have been on, I did certainly dissappoint my wife and don't know if she has faith that I will ever permanently keep sober. Well, looking ahead I ran four miles last Thursday and will run three today. I am not too far behind in my fitness work, so the drink episode didn't hurt that. Wow, I need some plan to continually get some face to face support. I really just don't know what I will do. I will continue with my runs at least three times a week till February, then will increase a bit. I have no desire to drink right now and am planning to take Antabuse for a year anyway. Maybe after that I will have established some better patterns for staying sober. I have been doing a fairly good job eating so far through the year and will continue to watch my diet...

I haven't been writing as much as I really need to write. Things have been going fairly well, though I need to start working on some socialization and getting more actively involved in church and Sierra Club, etc. Been working out and eating pretty good, though seemed not to have lost any weight, maybe even gained. I will drop down to 150 lbs no matter what I have to do. My primary consideration though is physical fitness and am running no less than 3 days per week this month, then four next month then possibly five the nexe. Had a great four miler yesterday at 6mph on the treadmill. Well, better go before I am late for work.

Honda Element. That is what we bought for my wife to drive this weekend. Nice ride. I think it is a vehicle people would either love or hate, but it is a vehicle for our family. Did a 5K run this afternoon and feel pretty good. I have been having brief moments of stinking thinking and the runs always put me in a better place. Did a recovery workshop this weekend, though only half the Saturday session. I really enjoyed it. I am still looking for the right balance in addressing the sleeping alcohol issue, though the nicotine issue is also present from time to time. Been doing well in those respects and am currently concentration more on eating and physical workouts. Well, I am nodding off. Bedtime!

Thus far things are moving right along this year and all is well. I have comfortably settled into life finally. I think that with balance all will be fine and I want again ever use a chemical adjustment ie. alcohol. My current workout program seems to be a fit for me. Currently, I am just trying to find the balance between cross training and running. As I age I have noticed as in yesterdays run, that the bones jar a little more than when younger and the muscles do not have their spring. Running still works magic for fitness however, fitness of mind and body. My cross training for now is primarily bicycling, but I am going to add elliptical trainer and I think the pool would be a good idea on rest days. Haven't done any pool work in a while, but might give it a go. Let's see there are several other things to discuss such as eating: right now just practicing modification and portion control. Need to also have a spiritual discourse, but this article is not the place and don...

Well, another day another aerobic workout. I am just going to take it fairly slow, develope consitency and stay healthy. I WILL somehow get down around or under 150 lbs. Rad is with some friends going to a movie, so mom and I had sex and we are getting ready to go to a movie and dinner. Life is good!

Well, biked 15 miles today and really enjoyed time with Rad and Kim. Kim and I started "Purpose Driven Life" tonight. We will read and ponder for the 40 days as we have agreed to and told others I would do (my daughter, June: a lady I met on a plane who sent me the book). We are both skeptics, but I think Kim is really a hard case. Bob Jones University really gave her a thick skin when it comes to spirituality and religion. Well, life is moving forward and today I had a day which correlates to my version of total fitness. One day at a time staying or moving toward practice of total fitness.

Well, I am ready for the new year. I am looking forward to blowing the doors off of life beginning now. Life is a wonderful experience and I plan on taking advantage of it. Today we will take a bike ride through town in Nashville and let Rad think about playing in the fountains. He thinks he will, but the temp is borderline. Life is good ! :-)

Looking forward to the New Year with a lot of hope for a Total Fitness burst. Have been slowly building this year especially during the Fall and feel that I am ready to begin a cosistent and somewhat rigorous fitness regime to become at 45 the fittest I have ever been in the coming year. This will also involve changes in my diet, and building productive routings. I am looking forwad to meeting my goals in the coming year. This weekends goals are a workout and run today and a couple of Tandem rides with my wife this weekend. The weather here is really nice and I am glad that it looks as if we will have the opportunity for a New Years Day ride.

Well, all is going well for now. I have thus far eaten well for the past couple of days. I ran three miles yesterday and am just chilling out tonight. I thought about going to an AA meeting tonight, but I am just too much comfortably at home. Don't know what is on the boob tube tonight, but I may just read instead. I am not really too interested in watching television. One thing I could do is work on my calander. Work is going ok and my feelings at the moment are that there is no use trying to gain any illicit pleasures from getting away with something because I am "home alone". After all the reality is that there is no pleasure from the illicit. There may be temporary excitement, always followed by confusion, disgust, angst, anguish and pain. What I am doing now is in stead building momentum to move into the coming year.

Well, it is Christmas eve and I have to get Santa ready soon. Rad is in the tub, doing his rub-a-dub-dub. I am glad I am at home sober and not in a pub. Hope everyone is having a happy holiday. Though earlier I was a little tired and felt ill, I am much better now. Looking forward to seeing Amanda.

Rad and Santa. Rad seems a little subdued, but it is only at the moment. He's a head banger, can't you tell? :-)