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Well, today is another day in paradise. At least life is good and thought maybe not paradise compared to alternatives it is paradise. I am going to concentrate on my eating from this point forward and do some aerobic workout daily. Will start slow as I want to concentrate on consistency and not running mileage. Will add only a mile weekly until I reach a plateau. Daily activity will be the key.

Wow, I have waken un to a really great day. Tried to watch Tennesse-Florida last night and fell asleep. Went to be with two minutes left and Tennessee came back and won. Life is glorious life right now. I have decided to deal in all things from a sense of self empowerment. I am at the moment happy with the feelings associated with this decision and immediate results. Thus far I ran 3 miles Friday and worked out at the gym. We bicycled 26 miles yesterday on our Tandem bicycle pulling our 3yo in a trailer. Has been just a good weekend all around.

Much has happened since my last written word here. Has a short lapse of a week and detox. Changed jobs. Much has changed. What have I learned? I have learned that I need to follow my heart and intuition in regards to what I need to do to be comfortable living on this planet. I have lately been running and working out, but not eating optimally. I will continue on working toward a balance of living fitness. I will trudge on with the primary goals in my life of having fun in life and helping others. Enough for today.

Just got back from a camping vacation in Florida and all is well. We had a great time and put a few miles on our new Tandem Bicycle. I have both feet planted firmly in sobriety and fitness. Still floundering a little as have been my whole life on the work/career issue, but that may or may not change. Point is I am putting one foot in front of the other and carrying on. Ran three miles yesterday. I am still a little stubborn as far as running goes. With my knee proble, I should probably stick to the bike, but I just like to run despite the pain. The most wonderful thing though for now is that I am spiritually fit, though still far from perfect. I feel closer to a balance than I have in a loonnnng time. :-)

Well, wonderful things seem to be happening in my life. I am really grateful to have a newly established relationship with God, that is now for me the base for my totfit lifestyle. I just completed a three mile run, that felt great with only minor "knee twinges." Looking forward to our vacation in Florida first week in July. We just purchased a Burley Tandem that we won't get until Friday, but looking forward to some family rides along cape san blas down to Appalachiacola. Had a blast at my son's three year old birthday party yesterday. We had a camping theme at a park with a huge playground and we all had a ball, especially me.

Well back home again after a week working out of town. I am now an AA champion. I have decided to follow through on my sobriety with the support of aa about other resources. Imagine that. I really don't know where all of this is coming from, but I am being moved in that direction. Looks like I will be out of town for about a month. I am not happy about this. there is so much going on right now. I am getting ready to go on vacation. Rad's birthday is coming up. I just really don't know what I am going to do about work. Fitness wise I am doing ok. Work plays a big role in my fitness at the moment, but I have also been running and biking a bit. Well, better get out and cut the grass right now.

Well, my last post just dissappeared. I am TOTFIT today in mind, body, and spirit. I am in Chattanooga spending a couple of days at the aquarium. I am not sure what I will be doing after tomorrow. Tomorrow we head to Cleveland, TN. Been doing a lot of thinking about AA lately. I think I will spend some aa time. Hopefully, and I really feel that my last drink is done. Well, I am also getting sentimental about things in my life. I feel, really feel and it is good. Don't know much else for now. Heading to river fest.

Really had a great weekend mentally, spiritually, and physically. Isn't that total fitness? The physical aspects for the weekend were a two mile run and one mile walk on Saturday with a home gutter cleaning session. Yesterday we biked about 19 miles round trip to the YMCA where we took Radnor swimming. It was ready to storm on the way back, so we stopped at Uncle Bud's Catfish to eat and wait out the storm. Perfect timing ate during the storm and had a leisurely ride home. Went to an AA meeting Saturday also. I feel more confident in my sobriety than I have ever I guess. I am not as much confident that I will stay sober as I am confident in my commitment and the knowledge that absolutely nothing positive will come from a drink, so why bother? Really, today I just feel blessed. I feel blessed to be who I am with what I have been given in life. Life is good! I am up in the early morning hours unable to sleep writing this which is not so good, but I am awake from gratitude a...

Well, after changing from a teacher to heavy commercial form carpenter, the summer pace is here. Seems that I am mostly used to the work once again, though I will still be getting in better work shape for a couple more months or so. Have some regret from time to time about the teaching, but I know in my heart that I am best suited to something else that is less stressful. I am sober and intend to stay that way. I am grateful for this fact and will do anything to maintain this attitude. Still not eating as light as I would like, but not sure how much lighter I could eat with the work I do.Later

Teenage daughter is really giving us the run around about visitation at the moment. The only time she is really sure to contact us or be available for contact is when she wants some money. Guess it is not a unique situation, but I am tired of it. I am especially tired of the quarterly pleas from her mother for extra money. I think when she turns 18 it may be all over. Two more years and I am done. Sober thing is going well. Went to an actual face to face AA meeting yesterday and even spoke up. I think for the most part I am doing well on the totfit scale. I would say currently operating about a 7 on the scale of the unattainable 10.

I am so sick of the politics and propaganda of this administration that I would just about renounce my citizenship. Hope for change is my only hope. Lies and propaganda fuel the heartbeat of our country and its citizenry. What to do? I am still firm in totfit/totsob. I am wanting to go to a meeting. I think tomorrow morning will be a good one for me. I have so much work to do at the house, that I don't know if I will ever be done. I will just do what I can tomorrow. Sunday will be a spiritual rest and relaxation day. Along with a workout of course.

Wow, the days of the week are flying by. I am having little problem now with the TOTFIT/TOTSOB mentality. The only thing I seem to have problems with is the restlessness as far as jobs go. I don't know if there is little going on here at DELL or not, but now wish I had stayed there. Oh well, the main thing is to just keep on moving forward, right? Better go for now. All is well!

Well, just back to the normal routine after the holiday. I am trying to lose a pound a week through vacation time first week of July. Am going to try to add no less than three aerobic days during the week as it has been averaging 2-3 the past four or five weeks. Addictive thinking these days is at a minimum except for sexual thinking. Well, I must start thinking meditating and working on the spiritual part of my fitness triangle. JUST DO IT!

Well, it is Sunday, Labor Day Weekend and we had a great ride yesterday of 47 miles. We towed Radnor in the trailer for the first 15 miles and we rode without him on our tandem bike for the rest of the time. It was a great ride and hopefully the beginning of putting together some time on the bike. Today we are sitting here wondering about the weather and whether or not we are going to ride.

Wow, today is a different day! Don't know why, but I felt a little depressed yesterday. I just stayed in a funck most of the day after slightly pulling a leg muscle behind my knee. Almost a week without any type of patch, so that might be part of the problem. TOTSOB/TOTFIT is still the name of the game above all and things are still going well. Looking forward to riding bikes two days at the Horsey 100 this weekend.

Beautiful hot summer day here in Nashville. We were going to do a bike ride today, but the wind was horrendous, so I went for a run at Shelby Park instead. We enjoyed the afternoon and had lunch at the Farmer's Market and Rad played in the fountains at the Bicentinnial Mall. It was a beautiful day all around. Still my head is in a totfit mode. I am now keeping a food journal at fitday . Still looking two weeks ahead in battling any urges to get off track. There is still some questions in my head as far as career path goes. I probably won't be able to continue in the work I am doing over the long hall, because of my knees. I may have to start looking at a real career. I like construction, but the wear and tear my make me leave. What to do....I don't know. Computer Industry, Dell, just don't know. I guess though if I just open my mind and stay the path I am on answers will come.

Today is pool day for Rad and Dad. Tried to go yesterday, but it was closed. I would like to get the grass cut before we go. I here him calling now and must run. Today I need to get grass cut, run 3 miles and get some other things done also. I must remember that drinking alcohol for any reason at any time in the present or future would be an act of insanity. I am sober by choice. I am fit by hard work. Will begin cutting calories. Would like to loose about 10 pounds. That will take some time. Time to go.

I am not new to cable, but just went for a week out of town. A week of dial-up on motel room phone line reinforced just how wonderful broadband was compared to dial-up. I am glad to be home more so of course to be with my son, wife, and even Norman the wienie dog. Today I think we will go to the YMCA pool and enjoy. Course, sobriety and total fitness are top priority for the day and a bike ride to the beach is in order.

Well, not totally sleepless, but rooming with a bear and sleeping with difficulty. I guess I slept 5 hours anyway. Went down very early, just didn't stay down. Why on sleepless nights do I always go over regrets. The only big regrets I have right now are leaving teaching the way I did. And while I would like to say that it was not the way I intended it to happen with little notice and none to the kids, then why did I write the resignation letter the way I did? The reality was it happend just the way I wished it would. I wanted the hell out. Accept it and move on. Still wonderfully calm as far as sobriety goes. Sobriety and total fitness are again and always my priorites. I guess I'll have one more night with the bear in my room and then I can go home to wife and child. Today is going to be a long tough day. Let's make the best of it.

Well, I am sober today and I for some reason I feel that I will finally be sober for good. I am just comfortable with sobriety and could not imagine drinking again for any reason. I also like to take care of myself mentally, physically and spiritually. I love life and all it has to offer today. I will continue to toe the sober line.