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Well, it is Sunday, Labor Day Weekend and we had a great ride yesterday of 47 miles. We towed Radnor in the trailer for the first 15 miles and we rode without him on our tandem bike for the rest of the time. It was a great ride and hopefully the beginning of putting together some time on the bike. Today we are sitting here wondering about the weather and whether or not we are going to ride.

Wow, today is a different day! Don't know why, but I felt a little depressed yesterday. I just stayed in a funck most of the day after slightly pulling a leg muscle behind my knee. Almost a week without any type of patch, so that might be part of the problem. TOTSOB/TOTFIT is still the name of the game above all and things are still going well. Looking forward to riding bikes two days at the Horsey 100 this weekend.

Beautiful hot summer day here in Nashville. We were going to do a bike ride today, but the wind was horrendous, so I went for a run at Shelby Park instead. We enjoyed the afternoon and had lunch at the Farmer's Market and Rad played in the fountains at the Bicentinnial Mall. It was a beautiful day all around. Still my head is in a totfit mode. I am now keeping a food journal at fitday . Still looking two weeks ahead in battling any urges to get off track. There is still some questions in my head as far as career path goes. I probably won't be able to continue in the work I am doing over the long hall, because of my knees. I may have to start looking at a real career. I like construction, but the wear and tear my make me leave. What to do....I don't know. Computer Industry, Dell, just don't know. I guess though if I just open my mind and stay the path I am on answers will come.

Today is pool day for Rad and Dad. Tried to go yesterday, but it was closed. I would like to get the grass cut before we go. I here him calling now and must run. Today I need to get grass cut, run 3 miles and get some other things done also. I must remember that drinking alcohol for any reason at any time in the present or future would be an act of insanity. I am sober by choice. I am fit by hard work. Will begin cutting calories. Would like to loose about 10 pounds. That will take some time. Time to go.

I am not new to cable, but just went for a week out of town. A week of dial-up on motel room phone line reinforced just how wonderful broadband was compared to dial-up. I am glad to be home more so of course to be with my son, wife, and even Norman the wienie dog. Today I think we will go to the YMCA pool and enjoy. Course, sobriety and total fitness are top priority for the day and a bike ride to the beach is in order.

Well, not totally sleepless, but rooming with a bear and sleeping with difficulty. I guess I slept 5 hours anyway. Went down very early, just didn't stay down. Why on sleepless nights do I always go over regrets. The only big regrets I have right now are leaving teaching the way I did. And while I would like to say that it was not the way I intended it to happen with little notice and none to the kids, then why did I write the resignation letter the way I did? The reality was it happend just the way I wished it would. I wanted the hell out. Accept it and move on. Still wonderfully calm as far as sobriety goes. Sobriety and total fitness are again and always my priorites. I guess I'll have one more night with the bear in my room and then I can go home to wife and child. Today is going to be a long tough day. Let's make the best of it.

Well, I am sober today and I for some reason I feel that I will finally be sober for good. I am just comfortable with sobriety and could not imagine drinking again for any reason. I also like to take care of myself mentally, physically and spiritually. I love life and all it has to offer today. I will continue to toe the sober line.

Made it last night in just a little over two hours. The trip was a lot quicker than I had imagined. I am and will remain TOTFIT/TOTSOB. Sobriety and quest for total fitness are primary in my life and with that I can take care of all important things and make a positive contribution to the world. Will be starting work at 6:30. The job is only a couple of minutes from the motel, so starting won't be too bad. Haven't really seen the area yet. I am wondering what sights are available. We are right here by the Ocoee River. It would be a nice place to tour. I have my bicycle, but imagine the hills here would be a killer after work. Well, I do miss Rad and Kim. I for some reason almost got a little choked up when I left. Silly, but guess I am getting a little more emotional at the ripe old age of 45. Well, better get moving and ready for work.

Getting ready to go to Cleveland, TN to work for a few days. First time I have been away working since Radnor was born. I guess we will just have to see how things work out. Today is going to for the most part be a relaxing day with family and then I will leave about 6:00 PM. Well, don't know much else for now. Didn't eat the greatest yesterday, but will keep working on it. I am still about 8 or so pounds from what I consider my ideal weight, maybe 10 to 12. Would like to be around 150 in a couple of months. It is a much better weight fo running.

Just a link to some pretty good information. Since I believe "total fitness" encompasses spirituality here are some thoughts: http://www.skysite.org/wellness.html. The website has some pretty good philosophical information also. Well, I have been for my run already. Showered. Rad taking a nap. Yes, it is time for Saturday afternoon SEX! Hurry up with your lunch mama, daddy has got something for you :-).

Just enjoyed a morning run and thinking session. Reflected of course on sobriety and was of course a fitness participant. The thinking went from Bush and Hummers being the enemy to how long my "quest" for sobriety has left me little time for actual action along my line of beliefs. Well, TIME FOR A CHANGE! Instead of setting on the sidelines and being critical of others actions or miss actions in my head, time for me to start acting. The enemy: social, environmental, and political antagonists; these are the culprits with which I will direct my action. The religeous right is wrong! Oh well, rambling and time for a shower. Sobriety is the icing, but ain't the cake good.

Well, it is a TOTFIT Friday in Nashville. Got off a little early today. We are going out of town for work next week. Cleveland, TN by the Ocoee River will be the destination. This should be just a little taste of how things will be if I have to go out of town later on for any kind of extended period. I was a little draggy at work first thing and it was kind of a slow day for us, but I did gain energy as the day went on. Now to plan the weekend.

Well, though I got wetted out of work today, I had a most productive day at the house. Got a lot of cleaning done and a little bit of laundry. I also went to a meeting and ran three miles. Still not a hint of "stinking thinking" as far as drinking goes. I feel most calm and relaxed. Sent Amanda an email get well. Hate that she is sick with mono, but I am really powerless to give much comfort from an almost 200 mile distance apart. Well, got to get ready for supper.

Wow, this week is flying by! Now we are left with the question, what for the weekend? Rain forecast Saturday, but we will have to ride on Sunday. Maybe we will ride to the Y. Whatever I do I will not let the crazy thoughts of doing damage to my body or spirit creep into my head. I will remain TOTSOB and conduct myself in a TOTFIT manner. Haven't been to the gym since I started work. I may have to go today for a bit if I have any energy at all left after work. Hopefully, I will have enough for a run or bike this afternoon at the very least. Rad has been getting up in the night and trying to get in bed with us. What are we going to do with him? Well, its off to work.

Well, can't believe I have arrived at this place in time. I certainly don't feel the way I would have years ago perceived 45 to feel. I actually don't feel much different than I did at 25, though I would have to say in certain ways a bit wiser. Probably a bit wiser and open and honest about my strengths and weaknesses and more accepting of who I am and am not. I know myself. Physically, I am better, though I have suffered a little wear and tear (primarily knees), it is nothing I can't adapt to and deal with. I can't think of a thing I would really want to change about my life right now, even though at 45, I still don't necessarily know what I want to do when I grow up. Don't really expect that will ever happen, both the growing up and the buckling down with a single career path. I guess variety is the spice of life, though fame and fortune will not fall my way. I have settled down into a family that I love and would not trade for anything. We aren't perf...

For me the new week begins on the workday, not the calander Sunday. Dragging a little this morning after all the physical activity of the weekend. I am still a little bushed and would just love to lay out today. Well, I'd best keep things moving. I was enamored by the sailboats yesterday. I am getting boat fever for sure. Course if we had a boat we would have to dock it somewhere. I will maintain my totfit/totsob attitude this week and of course remember that alcohol is poison for me. Well, better get ready for the day.

Wow, just completed a hilly 24 mile bike ride pulling my son in a trailer. I am BUSHED. I think this is going to turn out a little funny. Oh well, it is time for bed and I can't mess with it now. Total sobriety is the only way for me.

Essential Therapy Store & Spa I may have to try this soon. I could certainly use a full body massage for my getting older body. Not sure what today holds other than it being a totally sober day. Mom will have the say so today and I guess Rad and I will go along for the ride. The ride will probably be a bike ride to a yet to be determined location. Well, it is going to be a beautiful hot day, so where we ride really won't matter. :-)

Cool Running :: totsob's running log Well, I finally got a run in at only 2 miles and then walked a mile, but wanted to take it easy starting out. Went to a meeting this morning and am getting back in the swing of things. Did a couple of things around the house today and feel really good, but sleepy at the moment. Got to go for nowl.

Well, it has been a hot, hot day at work. I think it has jumped from April till July temperature-wise. Once again total fitness and sobriety are the priorities. I am going to turn it on at 45, which is May ll. I'll try and hit a meeting tomorrow, but otherwise I am not sure of the mother's plans for the weekend. I will let her decide since it his her weekend. Going for Tie food tonight and am looking forward to it. A friend is taking us out since I fixed their computer. Well, need to start getting busy.

Well, got a taste of what the summer holds in store for heating up an old carpenter. It was hot today, but I still came home and cut the grass. It is a wonder how the drink compulsion has just left. I still expect to have thoughts later on, but for now none. It seems almost too easy. I still haven't begun me aerobic workouts, but I will get started soon, no later than birthday. Well, time for bed.

Looks like there will be a break from rain for the next SEVERAL days and I am wonderfully happy about this development. This morning I once again set my priorities to be TOTSOB/TOFIT. Without my sobriey I am not myself, I am lost. I didn't get my workout in yesterday as planned, but I made the house really look good. I ran through like a terror. I helped Meredith with her computer, reinstalled her XP. Unfortunately, I couldn't save her data. We are going for Indian quisine Friday. Today I have to pick up Radnor, so the next workout opportunity will be Wednesday. I did eat well yesterday. Well, better get ready for work. TOTFIT/TOTSOB

Radar shows that I might not be working today. This will give me a great chance for a day at the gym. I AM going to start once again concentrating on aerobics and eating. The 11th of this month I will be 45 and TOTFIT will be my priority for the second half of my life and will go hand in hand with sobriety. After today the rest of the week looks beautiful. Maybe I will check out a meeting today after cleaning the house. "Mean Girls" this afternoon? The world is my oyster. Hope I don't go out of town this week, but if I do it will just be for a couple of days.

Today looks like a relaxed somewhat cooler day of TACA arts fair touring. We have my nieces to day and plan on touring the fair before we take them home. Had an enjoyable reunion yesterday, though I ate entirely too much. I guess I can affort to splurge occasionally considering the type of work I am now doing. I haven't begun working on aerobics, but feel the need to stay around and entertain. Will begin tomorrow working out aerobically once again. Though sometimes my knees whine that it is time to find something other than running, I still like to run. Would like to get into the pool for some lap workouts once again soon, but have been procrastinating. Hopefully Kim can get off early enough to do some bike rides also. Guess I'd better get off my duff and begin entertaining once again.

Well, the workweek is done and a weekend of family reunion, arts festival, entertaining son and nieces is planned. TOTFIT/TOSOB of course is as always the priority for the day. I am looking forward to the reunion. Hopefully, all of my cousins will attend this affair for a change. Not sure what to do for Pop's birthday, but hopefully he will enjoy his cake and the offer of a trip to watch a game with his "boys". If I can, I am going to slip in a meeting this morning. Not sure if I will have time, but I will try. Well, better start making preparations.